9.46PM You shouldn't be here at this time .
Just finish dinner with course mate after their guitar class . I back home , I see him . Just a short conversation before I go upstairs . Tomorrow having keyboard harmony exam . But nothing to revise for this subject .
Violin playing worsen . Worsen . Don't even realize what going on in my life . Everything is a mess . Major minor exam , harmony , oral , paper work exam . When can everything can be settled down ? The only thing I can play well on my violin , the only thing I have the biggest hope on it get worsen .
Worsen ...Last week everything still goes well . Condition right now , well - worsen .
Can't denied that , I myself always have a high expectation on my violin . Whenever I play well once , I can start imagine myself play like a MPO player . But this will never last long . the next day same piece , but I play like a piece of shit . For this matter I can dull myself for a whole long day. This is what" Expectation killed "means . Everyday I am thinking of the day where my playing can become like Teacher Angela . This day never come easy . It might take your whole lifetime .
I have such high expectation on my violin is just because I love violin more than everything . I care my violin more than everything . But once the worse strike , just like the glass scattered into pieces . And it also take a quite long time for her to recover .
Ms Susanna conduct for our SATB choir competition . I am standing right in front of her . Before get up onto stage , I was thinking she should be not as nervous as us .. should be okay wert . She has been performing around the world for more than 20 years . But who knows , when she conduct , her hands shiver so serious . I start wondering for how many years can I conquer the stage fright problems .
Everything please go smooth during exam .
Just finish dinner with course mate after their guitar class . I back home , I see him . Just a short conversation before I go upstairs . Tomorrow having keyboard harmony exam . But nothing to revise for this subject .
Violin playing worsen . Worsen . Don't even realize what going on in my life . Everything is a mess . Major minor exam , harmony , oral , paper work exam . When can everything can be settled down ? The only thing I can play well on my violin , the only thing I have the biggest hope on it get worsen .
Worsen ...Last week everything still goes well . Condition right now , well - worsen .
Can't denied that , I myself always have a high expectation on my violin . Whenever I play well once , I can start imagine myself play like a MPO player . But this will never last long . the next day same piece , but I play like a piece of shit . For this matter I can dull myself for a whole long day. This is what" Expectation killed "means . Everyday I am thinking of the day where my playing can become like Teacher Angela . This day never come easy . It might take your whole lifetime .
I have such high expectation on my violin is just because I love violin more than everything . I care my violin more than everything . But once the worse strike , just like the glass scattered into pieces . And it also take a quite long time for her to recover .
Ms Susanna conduct for our SATB choir competition . I am standing right in front of her . Before get up onto stage , I was thinking she should be not as nervous as us .. should be okay wert . She has been performing around the world for more than 20 years . But who knows , when she conduct , her hands shiver so serious . I start wondering for how many years can I conquer the stage fright problems .
Everything please go smooth during exam .
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